Tuesday, April 25, 2006

i had a lil talk with him last nite til 3am
i wondered if i cried myself to sleep as i remembered waking up feeling i was in a deep sleep..
but i guess i did.. cuz i had a blocked nose.. n my eyes luk puffy 0.0
i duno wad got into me i sudd called him up.. talking all the craps i did.. sobbing lyk a lil girl.. i suppose everyone thot vivien is a strong girl who didnt cry.. its just that nobody sees the tears that im trying so hard to keep behind tt pair of eyes...

a few days ago i saw fang at cineleisure.. she was wid her frenz.. she luk so happy & cheerful.. wen she finally spotted me.. we smile awkwardly at each other n said 'hi'.. a few moments aft tt.. tears stung my eyes.. she was my best fren fer 7 long years.. all the fun, tears & joy....
how i wish i cud turn back time...

i was planning to take a month's break from work.. which is impossible.. to take tings off my mind.. bcuz some of the times i cant concentrate at all..
my territory's supervisor talked to me a few weeks back.. complimenting i did a good job aftr i took over.. tt the var is good & the shop is owaes tidy... den my IC's disclosed tt they tinking of promoting me to Shop Manager.. siao. i den dowan tt kinda stress. i am contented as where i am le.. n i tink im not up to tt standard..

The Art of Seduction, Take the Lead, Black Night, Hostel, Eight Below... are the movies i've watched lately.. nice shows.. i love the Take the Lead cuz they dance real kool lor.. but Eight Below made me tear-ed.. so touchy...

muh voice stil haven recover yet.. went to cee doctor alone.. so pathetic.. everyone's busy with the own routine..
thursday marks a new chapter of my life. i hope it is wad i wished for. if not i would neva be the girl everyone used to know anymore.

he said..
for every bad memories..there are a hundred beautiful ones..jus like us
he touched my heart everytime he says tt.. cuz it was i. who dint learn to treasure wad was right before my eyes. & wen i did. everything was too late. browsing thru the 200 over pics we took in muh comp.. i thot to myself.. i only haf myself to blame..
i apologise for calling u those nasty names wenever u did something tt hurts..

i tink i gonna haf a deep sleep tonite too.
*thks ebel for ya sweet sms wen i felt so down. lurve ya.
*thks to all the other peeps to express their concern thru sms/msgs just to make me feel betta.