Monday, August 28, 2006

he went to this girl's [whom he once liked before] bday celebration yesterday
for 3 days straight, we've been quarrelling bcuz of this..
and for 3 days straight, i've been crying myself to sleep..
i was also sick for the past 3 days.. yet...

we were on our way to arab street tt day.
he told me she say she's celebrating her bday on sunday.. asking if he can go...
he proceed to tell me who will be attending...
when he was done i ask him. ya?
so i ask if he's planning to go. den he asked, can i go? from that very moment i know Wadeva i say to stop him would be meaningless. cuz he's bent on going no matter wad.
i tried to be nice u know? i admit i dint like her before. cuz she called my darl sweets when we were already together. what the fuck is she trying to do? alrite tt was close to 2 years back. but these things no matter how long would always leave a scar deep.
this time's different.. i gave up Everything for this dude of mine. i even tried to befriend her again. fang.. tell me now.. would the vivien u know do that? NEVER would be the answer. but i tried. i really did. i even invited her to my bday bash 2 months back. yep they were shocked but i did my part. they dint come thou. it was okay bcuz i tried.

i was pissed because she say it was awkard to invite me. what the fuck. to me it was like she's trying to sow discord between us. u would feel the same. if u were put in my shoes.
so that's what she wants. him to go and make us quarrel. she's the angel and im the one looking bad now. den he tried to salvage the situation by saying actually she did want to invite me but.. wadeva's the rest im not even interested to knw already.

i don even want to mention wad the other one of his good fren did. same thing. this fren of his was got in this contest at momo. so i say hey lets go support her lor. he was surprised.
guess wad happen? his good fren's girlfren got high! and almost hug my dude! actually she did. not almost but she did. given my temper i would haf slap her awake. Right On the Spot. But I dint. and i Dint because i saw him siaming. i wasnt angry with him. i was angry why his good fren dint stop her fren from doing so. he say it wasnt his fault i say true but r u telling me because she's drunk i shdnt blame her. alcohol. is bad. so if u cant drink. DONT ok.

yest was her bday celebration.. it was at chevons.. at jurong area.. i dint want to go home... and drive myself crazy.. so i msged cady.. she was going to haf dinner at novena wit kally den i ask her at nite going wer.. she say no idea at the moment. it was a sunday nite. wad do i expect? all the clubs were closed. i met them up at taka. den we head to clarke quay. the club wasnt open. so we took cab to dxo to try our luck. it was open but there was a contest gng on. n den it closes aft tt. argh. while we were deciding wer to go i ask if i can head home. i wasnt Even in the mood for clubbing in the 1st place.. juz tt i dint wan to go home.. they say wakao!.. they actually wan to go elsewer but accompany me de.. i felt so bad.. being a intruder.. n a spoilsport so i went ahead wit whereva they want.. we went back to clarke quay.. actually wanted to go attica.. they actually wanted to go in le but the music we hear outside tells me eeek.. den they ask wad i wan siak.. i saw they looked so pissed i felt so bad again.. =..( in the end we ended up at onenitestand. we were the only people inside. nice chillout place. i had a glass of volkalime & one of their famous shot. cocksuckingcowboy. boy was it nice. with a tint of vanilla. woo. they keep toking to me.. n made me play cards with them to keep my mind away.. 10 plus wen i asked him wad time he's leaving he say duno.. 11 plus i ask him again he say soon. 1130 he say half an hour more. 1230 he's still there. i am TRYING very hard here to be a good girlfren. u were already There. couldnt u tink of my feelings? couldnt u leave earlier knowing i am upset? no u did N o t h i n g. i went home half drunk. as in high. and yest was the 1st time i drank at home. i cried n cried til the volka tastes nothing more dan coke. i tink my dad saw the volka. but he dint dare ask why.

i was crying n pouring my heart out last nite.. till i gave up on myself.. and him.. i couldnt take all these anymore.....


euu were the one i wanted to live the rest of my life with.

but i had enuff le.. all of these...
since they're so important to euu and ure in such a dilemma.. i leaving so u can be happy..