Thursday, August 31, 2006

it started with a lil fight and we ended going our own ways..
it started bcuz he wanted to go for li shi's bday..
it was a small matter. i was upset lyk i explained Why. his good buddy dint invite his gf to go. Why? she say it was awkard. HAHAHA. i say what the fuck. i wouldnt say it was entirely her fault but we started quarrelling bcuz of that. what was so difficult abt being nice? i was trying to make up already. what else do u people want from me?

my mom was telling me the same thing she said yest.. she is crazy to even haf such thots.
she asked me to clear my room. as in tidy up nicely so he can stay over & also concentrate on his studies.. i shouted SHUT UP b4 i left my hse.
i went to work feeling distracted.
nothing interests me anymore now dan liquor music & dance. i want to make myself soo very tired so i wun haf time to cry. pathetic isnt it. people wil say.. aiya she will get over soon. tt's rite. tt's bcuz its the surface u cee.

im crying again. for 5 days straight. i muz be crazie. ive neva shed so much tears in my whole life..

i don wan my life anymore. can someone ease my pain? i dun want to go back to who i was before. i don need many guys. all i wanted was.. him

All i want is to love u, for the rest of my life..
to wake up every morning, with u by my side..
knowing that not matter what happens, u'll be there for me..
& i'll be able to come home.. to ur loving arms..

its not going to come true already.. i shd face reality..
all i can say is "no time" is a really bad excuse.. tt was wad zp say too.
after 2 months ure giving up so easily just by pushing all the blame on me?
saying tis is only the start.. tt u'll be even busier wen dere r more projects to handle. a relationship requires hand-in-hand cooperation. give & take. but u chose this path which i neva expected from eu..

i was planning to celebrate of so-called 2nd yr anniversary. *skydining*
i wanted something really special for the both of us..
i was planning this more than 1 month b4 the actual date.
i was asking frenz for recommendtions for romantic dining.
i wanted to give him a surprise..

i never told u how glad i was when u owaes neva gave up our relationship whenever i say spilt in a moment of anger. tt was how i felt inside. nobody needed to know. u owaes ask why i cud say spilt so easily.. cuz i wanted what's best for you..
although i cant imagine life w/o u, i wish u will be happy..

your once beloved darlin